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2011 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2011 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 1,100 times in 2011. If it were a cable car, it would take about 18 trips to carry that many people.

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I don’t like war.

ImageBecause of a bundle of military action at this time, many people believe that a new World War is coming near. I do. However, I totally don’t like it at all. Here are some of my reasons for this dislike.

Firstly, war means a lot of people will die or be injured, much more people will be suffered from the deaths of their family members, their relatives, their lovers, their friends… And there are also a lot of people will be affected by the remains after the war.

Secondly, war will destroy our achievements in construction, culture and other fields, which were built up and developed by numerous talents through many generations. A beautiful building or a magnificent bridge can turn into a heap of rubbish. I do not want it to happen, definitely.

Thirdly, only evils want war happen. War will cost us a lot of money, and we usually need decades to pay all our debts, which originated during the war. We plan and spend money on killing people who are human like us. Then our children will have to focus their effort of recover the wounds caused by us. I cannot think of any animals can do such evil actions like what human do.

I hope there will be no war in this world forever.

I am a bad guy.

Well, I have two characteristics that some of you and I hate them the most, they are enviousness and selfishness. Actually, these are covered by my carefree gestures because they shouldn’t be shown off.

First, I want to talk about the enviousness. I always want to have everything that the others have, and inside my mind, some bad thoughts are about to appear.  For example, if I see a student bring an awesome laptop such as MacBook Pro, I may think that guy just bought it because he wants to impress other people, not because he loves it and knows how to take the most benefit from that Mac. Or when I see a beautiful girl goes along with a normal boy. I usually think that girl only date with that boy because she wants his money.

I know. Enviousness is totally not good. To avoid it, I try to think “That’s none of my business.” and “Why should I envy?” to get me out of that train of thought. I’m trying to get rid of this characteristic to make myself be better.

Second, I’m going to mention the selfishness. I am supposed to be helpful and friendly. Actually, I don’t do anything if its after-effects can harm my right. Like, when my friend borrows money or other stuff, I often think and assess him carefully to find out if he would pay to give it back to me. If I believe that I can’t trust him, I will find a logical reason to deny his request.

At first, I think that in many cases, I’m selfish because it’s for my own good. However, now, I understand if I continue being like this, I will be alone sooner or later.

It’s a shame to have to confess those things. I hope after speaking it out I will become better and better day by day.

Thanks for reading. Goodbye!

What would you do if your girlfriend doesn’t like your job?

Today, during the evening English class, one of my friends was asked that question. He was unable to answer it, and he said that question was too personal. I think the reason he couldn’t answer is he rarely thought about that situation. In my opinion, if she forces me to choose one of her and my job, I will choose my job. Here are some reasons for that choice:

– First, it’s really hard to find out someone you love, but it’s even more difficult to find a job that you like. Everyone usually has only one job that he loves. If you have to choose another, obviously you will not like it like the old one. Working in an environment that you dislike, it will make you stress and tired. Someday, it will knock you down. About girls, if you break with a girl, you can easily find another one to replace.

– Second, I’ll talk about the outsider’s perspective. As you know, people usually judge a man base on his career. If he is not successful, many people will look down on him. I’m sure some of his closest friends, relatives, or even his girlfriend will do look down on him. Even though, she is the one who told him to turn his path to be with her. We cannot know. If he fails in his career, even though he loves it, I can say that he was unlucky that time, and I will advise him to try to do it again.

– Third, if she loves you, she may know what is the best for you. She will try not to bother you and she will not require you to choose. If she does so, I can say she is selfish. She just thinks of her own happiness. She doesn’t care about anyone else. In that situation, you already know which the right choice is. No one blames on you for making such a decision.

So, to summarize, as a man, your career, your success must be put in first priority. Everything else should be in their right position. And that position is your background.

Am I awake or dreaming?

I don’t really aware of that problem. I don’t know that I am living a real life with real people and real relationships or I am sleeping somewhere else and dreaming about a long story that I don’t know the ending.

I am here. I am talking to you. I have family and friends, and I have good relationships with other people. I am studying well I’ve gained a lot of respect from my classmates. Like others, I have to face the loss of my friends and relatives. I feel the pain and I also get hurt. However, is it really my true self? There is a possibility that it is an imaginary world I’ve created inside my mind, isn’t it? How can I prove that this world is real?

I always feel that I am not actually living. I have a sense of being a blur image of someone else. I have been had this thought for a long time ago, since I was a little child as I remember. My existence seems meaningless to the others because I don’t think I really exist. I have no clue to confirm it but my sixth sense always talks to me that I need to wake up; this dream is going to end soon.

Why am I still here? Probably, I’m afraid of waking up in an unfamiliar world. I will likely have amnesia. At that time, in my head, only the memories which I had while sleeping may remain. Having a new life in a totally strange world is definitely very difficult. That is the only certain reason I can think of to explain about rejecting escaping this dream.

I want to both wake up and sleep. However, to solve this problem, I have to choose one. Have I put enough effort to do that? Maybe no! In addition, this isn’t right time and right place to attempt it. In one day, I will do it. How? I don’t exactly know. But I’ll try.

Thanks for reading! Goodbye!

Why am I feeling so sad?

Well, I definitely don’t know what occurred to me at this moment, I am feeling so depressed, dark, bruised, and disappointed, like I am broken-hearted. I can’t find the reason behind it, and it makes me not be able to take a short nap. I am really tired because of suffering from this sensation. It’s very likely I need something, but hopelessly I can’t still figure out what it is. It is straining my brain a lot. With that minded torture, I can’t either think of anything or concentrate on revision for next coming exam. I can’t bear it anymore so I decided to write it down here to get a relief deep inside my soul.

To tell more about the feeling, I think it’s a part of the pain over loneliness, careless of everyone, includes parents, relatives, and friends. Likely, I need a warm hug, an open talk about myself. I’m too reserved and taciturn, I know that. Maybe sooner or later, I will have depression. Another reason is apparently I have watched too much tragic cartoons for several days until now.

How can I deal with this problem? Perhaps, the quickest answer absolutely is watching comedy. In addition, writing it out makes me feel better now. I’ll try my best to keep myself from being so upset like this. I don’t want to experience it again.

Thank you and goodbye!

Today is my birthday.

My birthday is on 6th August. Sadly, there is no different with other days. I have never had any birthday parties for over 20 years. I seem to be familiar with it, but deep inside I really want to receive some felicitations from my friends instead of nothing like this. Even my parents, they do not remember it. They always remind me to stay focus on studying but they have never given me any gifts or congratulation to encourage me. This morning, I did have a thought that I would give myself a small present such as a cup of coffee in coffee shop (I always go to coffee shop on Sunday only) but I didn’t. That’s the reasons why I’m little bit upset right now.

I’m always lonely although there are a lot of people called friends around me. It’s simple because they can not see my true self. They can not see through the mask which I always wear for many years. To say shortly, I’m reticent and quiet. I want to change, I want to be more active and talkative, but I can’t. Changing personal characteristics isn’t easy. One thing I can do is write it down and post it here, on my blog. That’s enough. I don’t need anyone read it and sympathize with me.

Now, I’m looking forward to midnight. Then another day will begin, it will no longer be my birthday and I don’t need to worry about it anymore.

PS: Well, I wrote this article on 6th so don’t talk to me about the date today.

Goodbye and thank you!

I like tragedy anime.

Well, after watching some animes, I begin to like watching tragedy animes. You know, our life is not perfect; it cannot be fair to all of us. If you are happy, some one are now really upset and depressed. You may spend a lot of money on buying a new shirt, but at that time the other have to work hard to earn money for each living day. All of these are reflected in tragedy animes.

Its name shows it all, there is sadness in this type of cartoon. There, people have to die although they deserve to live, to be happy. Some lovely girls felt unconscious for a long time and let their friend, their parents, their relatives, their neighbors wait in a broken hope. This is where someone has to give up his life to save another because she is his love, his brother/sister, his closest friend… This is where some one has to search the other days by days, months by months and years by years hopelessly. Someone forget everything he should memorize. Moreover, this is where you cannot protect person you love even you tried your best. It can make you cry because of their miserable destinies.

However, I prefer light ones. I do not like people killing each other in a cartoon movie. I am afraid of blood. Instead, I want to watch an anime with a little magic in it, where souls can appear and communicate but they do not mean to harm anyone. They are just there to be happy with persons they love. Or your dream influents people around you somehow. I usually feel sad after watching them and they left a lot of emotion that is hard to describe.

In addition, today I read an article written about the requirements for who want to become member of a fan club named “World of Tragedy”. Except online frequently and having wide knowledge about anime, I meet all other remaining requirements of personal characteristics. That makes me realize that not only I like tragedy anime but also it is perfectly suitable for me.

Thanks for reading! Goodbye!

A soulful anime.

Today, finally, I’ve watched all episodes of an anime naming Air. It brought to me a lot of different emotion. It makes me feel peaceful in my soul and a little bit sad. I can’t stop thinking about the story of this film. What happened to them? What will they become? How will they live in the future? Can they overcome this voodoo? Where have they gone? Where will they go? May they feel happy in the heaven? May they come back to that world and have another but happier life?

Well, maybe I asked myself too many questions, but in order to let you understand my point, I’m going to summarize the content as following:

“The story began in 10th century, a princess, with a maid and a samurai – her guard man, went to find her mother. This princess belonged to a group of special human kind who had wings. She wanted to meet her mom because she had never known her mom, never had an idea of the existing of her mother. At the end of the journey, they were together again. Unfortunately, her mother had been put a spell on, and the king wanted to kill them all because of the fear of their power. He wanted to eliminate her kind to the root. Sadly, the princess and her mother died because of the enemies’ arrows and cold-hearted prays but the princess’ soul still alive, she moved from another to another body, because she was special, no human’s body can contain her soul. Sooner or later, they died. The samurai and the maid, with their loyalty, and their posterity, continued to find and free their princess’ soul from her poor fate.

After 1000 years of seeking, in summer, they fulfilled their destiny and their duty to the princess in a peaceful and quite village. In that village, it seemed that everyone have their own particular destiny; however, relating to the princess in some way. In addition, the entire villagers seemed to be living in dreams but broken. The boy, who is the far grandson of the samurai and the maid, help them one by one to wake up from their daydreams and then living happily with their relatives. In there, he met the young girl who has the princess’ spirit inside. At first, he didn’t know that, but later, he realized that she is the girl whom he is looking for, and then, trying to give her motivation and happiness to live, soothing her from the paint which was torturing her everyday. The boy did his best, he promise the girl that he will always be beside her no matter what happens, he transformed into a raven. One date later, the girl lost her memory. However, it didn’t end yet. Although the girl didn’t remember anything about him, she finally had the happiest summer holiday in her entire lonely life with her mother (actually, she is her aunt). She was able to rest in peace, with a smile on her face. The princess’ soul, now, can fly freely in the blue sky to the end of the horizon; the raven with the boy’s soul can fly to find the girl in his imagination; the aunt is enjoying her job in taking care of other families; everyone in that village now can live happily with their family. The princess, the samurai, the maid are now free and happy.”

This is a good ending, but somehow, sad, very sad. In addition, this is the film which makes me think and influence my spirit the most.

Thank you for reading my post! Have a nice day!

Empty backpack.

Yesterday, I watched the movie names “Up in the air”. After watching it, I feel like I have a same lifestyle with the main character. Well, why we must carry a heavy backpack but an empty backpack instead. Family, friend, relationship, and other properties, all of them are reasoned for our being tired or exhausted. We are being strained too much to worry about them. We are afraid of losing any pieces of that mess. We can’t just accept that we can’t be our children’s hero, or lose our house…

So, now, to get rid of it, there’s one little easy thing we can do, that is emptying our packet. No family, we don’t need to be upset about health and age of our parents. We won’t need to argue with our wifes (husbands) about the income or fixing our household equipments. We will not have children to have an eye on their school achievements. No friends, we will not need to afford to help them solve their own problems like lending money, looking after their houses, pets, their children… We will be alone, but not lonely. Always there is a way to deal with it.

As I said, with an empty backpack, we have the most precious thing in the world, it’s called freedom. We are free to fly to everywhere we like, do everything we want, a life with worried-free, no more stressful. If someone asks me if I scare of dying alone, I’ll properly say “No”, because, all of us will die alone. Here is the reason why. You and I will die in different time, different places, and somehow, with different people around.

One more thing, at the end of the movie, the main character wasn’t happy after all. That was caused by his giving up his own original way of life. That is a lesson for me, I will not make the same mistake as he did. Because of it, I believe I can achieve his theory into my life.

Thanks for reading.