Where there is a will, there is a way.
After a long vacation, when the day of flying away from home is near, somehow, I feel that I don’t want to go away from them.
I usually think that I can go anywhere at anytime for any duration without problem. But it seems that it’s not always true especially when I spend a lot of time together with those closed to me.
They were just some conversation at the coffee shops, some small parties we threw together, a short trip to nearby beach. They are just normal stuffs but they really help to deepen our bond. At least, that what I feel.
I want those happy days last forever, I don’t want to leave them. But, what can I do? I need money to live, they need money to live as well. Even, if I can stay here, they won’t. They have their own job, their own life. They have to work. We can’t be with each other all the time.
Sometime, I wish that we could never grow up, that we could stay as innocent children forever. But, time flows fast, it doesn’t wait for anyone, and now, here we are, worry about life and regret about the past.
For now, we can spend a lot of time together because we don’t have to take care of anyone else. I don’t dare to imagine about the future where we are all settle down and have a family. Will we are able to things that we are doing now? Few years ago, when I enter university, I asked my aunt if she meets her friends often. The answer is obvious “No”. She said her and them were all absorbed to the flow of life. They have little spare time for each other. At that time, I didn’t understand it much. As I become older, I’m scared that it might actually happen to me sooner or later.
Well, thing’s destined to come will come no matter what. Let’s just hope that, we can stay friends forever like those in movie “Grow Up”.
Yes, as I said, I will keep working and studying Maritime Profession no matter what happens. Some of my friends talked to me that they didn’t really want to join my current university’s department. They went to university because after studying, their parents (or their relatives) could possibly arrange for them a good offer. Some of them have their parents work for this industry so they can find a job in this field easier due to the relation they have. Most of them said that if they work on board, they perhaps work for ten years the most, and then they will apply for another job on shore. However, I won’t. I will be at sea for my entire life, until I retire or until there are no ships sail through the sea anymore.
Maybe, it was a fate that had already been decided. Four years ago, I chose this path by my own will but I didn’t have any clues about what I am supposed to do in the future. All I had in mind that time was how to get away from home as far as possible. While I was turning the pages of University Choosing Guideline, I found a piece of information about my current school. I immediately knew that what I was looking for and then applying for this department without any hesitation. I can say it my destined career.
At first, I was always worried that if I was suitable for this job. By the passing of time, I realize that I somehow like it. I also have other hobbies like learning about science, computer or IT. I like them but I don’t think I can make any big difference, but I found them right inside navigation. I like English; I have to study English a lot here. I like computer and technology; I can use a lot of modern equipment once I work on board. I want to be somewhere far away; I can travel around the world but no one can contact me if I don’t want them to do so. All my wishes can be fulfilled and I don’t wish for anything better than that. I can’t find any reason so as not to do this job.
I do not deny that my job has a lot of disadvantages. However they don’t matter to me. I’m going to graduate soon I will try my best to achieve what I desire and deserve to have.
When we were children, we used to listen to many fairy tales, and a lot of them were about three wishes that were given by the angels. Surely, those stories helped to build up our hearts and souls. And have you ever wished to have those three wishes? I have. And if there were angels, and they could possibly give us three wishes, what would you tell them? Well then, these are my wishes:
The first wish, I would wish for intelligence. I want to be more intelligent, cleverer, and more creative. I put it in the first place because I love knowledge, I am always curious about the world, how it works, how it changes, how it ends… I also like to read news and books about new technologies, new materials, new inventions… I want to create new things and to be good at my professional. I need to be intelligent to do all of them.
The second wish is about ability. In order to make the first wish become realizable in real life, I need the ability that help me to make my ideas come true. I heard many stories about very clever people but they’re not successful because they can’t achieve their potentials to get what they want. I definitely don’t want to be like them. I know a brilliant brain requires outstanding skills to make everything I think come true.
The third wish is for language ability. I want to be able to use English as naturally as native speakers are. Perhaps you may think that with intelligence I will be able to use English as well as I want. However, in my opinion, even in that case, English is only a foreign language to me; it cannot be my second language. Therefore, if it is possible, I want it to become my second language besides my mother tongue. With it, I may have a wide entrance to the human knowledge, and be able to satisfy my hunger for it. I have already had materials, now I just need English for the glue to mix them up.
Everyone has his own desires he would wish. Those above are wishes that I always wish that one day they would come true.
I wish you well with your life and career. Thank you and goodbye.
My birthday is on 6th August. Sadly, there is no different with other days. I have never had any birthday parties for over 20 years. I seem to be familiar with it, but deep inside I really want to receive some felicitations from my friends instead of nothing like this. Even my parents, they do not remember it. They always remind me to stay focus on studying but they have never given me any gifts or congratulation to encourage me. This morning, I did have a thought that I would give myself a small present such as a cup of coffee in coffee shop (I always go to coffee shop on Sunday only) but I didn’t. That’s the reasons why I’m little bit upset right now.
I’m always lonely although there are a lot of people called friends around me. It’s simple because they can not see my true self. They can not see through the mask which I always wear for many years. To say shortly, I’m reticent and quiet. I want to change, I want to be more active and talkative, but I can’t. Changing personal characteristics isn’t easy. One thing I can do is write it down and post it here, on my blog. That’s enough. I don’t need anyone read it and sympathize with me.
Now, I’m looking forward to midnight. Then another day will begin, it will no longer be my birthday and I don’t need to worry about it anymore.
PS: Well, I wrote this article on 6th so don’t talk to me about the date today.
Goodbye and thank you!
At that time, I just wanted to play with her hair, irritate her, happy to see she came to class everyday.
When I was in high school, I and she studied in a different school. Rarely do I have a chance to meet her but her images are still in my head.
Passing the university entrance exam, I am now studying to become a man who is always far away from home. That one-sided love is hurting me a lot. I hope time will erase that pain.
Eventually, I decided not to tell anyone, for any price, I will keep it in mind, a beautiful memory. One more decision, I will dedicate my life to seafaring, no wife, no child, no family.
I have a long time to think what I will I get and what I will lose when I make such decisions.
That’s hard but I will make it come true.
Thanks for reading!
Have a nice day!
At first, I need to say that I don’t want to mention about the past, although it was good or bad. If it’s terrible, I should forget it. Nevertheless, if it’s nice, you should never mind that.
Now, the first thing I have to do is changing the way of studying. In this period of time, I need to spend more time in reading and doing homework to understand and remember knowledge more carefully and clearly.
The second thing is about learning English. I need to work harder to improve my English level. The graduation exam is about two years later. English is the main language of my job and my life onboard. If I cannot get better, I will be fired absolutely.
The third thing is getting the driving license. That’s not so important. However, when I have it, I can drive more confidently.
Those are three main ideas for a new year plan. As you can see, this year I have to focus on studying at my university. It’s always the main goal of every student. I believe.